Before last night, I didn't feel compelled to give this a listen. It seemed pretty dark, so didn't seem like something I wanted to hear. However, I suppose last night I was in a place where "misery loves company".
I couldn't sleep. Honestly, I'm not breathing all that well either. Writing helps, so here I am, after listening to that podcast, fired up again about how messed up this world can be.
One of my children came to me quite upset with an awful rumour last night. A boy in his school, in our other son's grade, apparently shot himself yesterday. If this rumour is true, wow, I can only think of one thing that would have been worse... and that would be learning this was my own son, who had shared many experiences with this boy. I am now very worried about what this will mean for my children's mental health, and very, very sad for this boy's family if it's true.
I still don't know for sure if it's true. I just keep praying it's not true.
How am I doing right now? I guess the name of that podcast says it best. I had a listen and had a good cry, and dozed off for a little bit. Check it out - you'll know what I mean: https://www.apmpodcasts.org/ttfa/2017/11/introducing-childhood/
If this rumour is true, this is going to be a rough week, even though it's supposed to end with a fun experience that I've been very excited about.
Hug your kids close folks.
Just one more sign that our mental health system needs an overall, just like "It's Not About Us" very adeptly explains. This boy was well known by the system. We really didn't need another reason. It's well past time for change.
I've managed to put words to what I'm feeling, and that helps. "Terrible, Thanks for Asking".
